Sunday, May 16, 2010
Surely, the presence ...*
So, as I do when confronted with a situation like this that could be confusing, I simply said, "OK Lord, You show me what You want."
After the music service, I had already planned to precede the sermon by showing the segment from "100 Huntley Street", which profiled The Lord's Rain. I have to confess, as I looked at the segment again, with its images of the drug use and filthy alleys and rough-looking characters, there might be a hostile reaction among the guys. Partway through, the Lord said, "get them talking about it," so when it was over, I asked if there were any comments.
And people did start talking. They thought it was accurate and fair -- both in portraying the situation and in showing The Lord's Rain and what it does. The segment quotes Brendan (whom I've referred to before as one-half of our resident "glam couple") saying The Lord's Rain brings a sense of community, of people who truly care -- something he said was lacking elsewhere in the area. I asked the guys if we'd achieved that. It was unanimous: we have.
(Sense of community is a big deal on the Downtown East Side. The closure of the Health Contact Centre has sparked angry protests -- some of them tying up rush-hour traffic this past week -- even though the services, the official line goes, are being duplicated elsewhere. But as my friend Sandra Thomas*** writes in the Vancouver Courier, the Contact Centre provided that extra dimension: human contact. There's another dimension to the Contact Centre's closure, which, as is so often the case, concerns the matter of who stands to benefit from the Centre being closed. Stay tuned.)
And Jeff -- who's been coming to The Lord's Rain for over a year but only recently started coming upstairs to the services -- put it succinctly. "Thank you," he said. And everyone applauded.
On the one hand, I no more take personal credit for this than a baseball bat can take credit for a home run; but on the other, that sense of being obedient to God and "getting it right" is indescribably satisfying.
We were then left with about 15 minutes for the sermon, and by then, the presence of God was palpable. We talked about the sense of community that Brandon mentioned and the amazing ability we all have to confess our faults, pray for one another, and bring those faults together to the Cross for healing.
So at the Lord's reminder, I pulled out the foundation Scripture for my sermon last week at the Full Gospel church in Port McNeill -- which is one of our biggest supporters in a variety of different ways. The Scripture is John 20:11-18, where Mary Magdalene is weeping at the tomb, because "they" had taken away the body of Jesus. Jesus, I told them, was the only person who had seen her the way God intended her to be seen, and that had given her hope. Dead or alive, His body would remind her of that hope, and now, not even being able to see the body, that hope had been ripped away. That, I believe, was why she was weeping -- or, more accurately -- sobbing uncontrollably.
"They have taken away my Lord, and I know not where they have laid Him." Notice that she doesn't even talk about the body: they've taken away her Lord.
And we talked about the way that Jesus tells Mary not to "cling" to Him, because He hadn't yet ascended to the Father, but after He had done that, He would send the Comforter -- the Holy Spirit -- who would be the new hope for Mary and for everyone else. Don't cling to anything in the world, Jesus is saying: cling to that Comforter. In fact, when we receive it, we find the Comforter clings to us.
Hope -- more than programs or money -- is the overriding need in the Downtown East Side; but also, the people in the area -- particularly those in that room -- "get it". They know that they need that hope, because the world sure isn't providing it. And for that, they're several steps ahead of a lot of rich folk, who cling to material things and are so blinded by the "god of this world" that they don't realize how much they need Jesus.
When we feel that we're totally bereft of hope, usually all we have to do is turn around -- like Mary -- and Jesus will be right there, calling our name.
Afterwards, some of the guys came up to talk about their hopes and where they wanted to go in their lives. Warren, for instance, has reappeared on the scene, about nine months after coming in the first time, asking for prayer because he hadn't felt as close to God as he had in the past. He said he received a Word at that time that helped him re-focus (I can't remember what it was): now, he says, he's back on track and some Native evangelists (notably Clarence Vickers) are urging him to start preaching.
Steve talked about having disabilities, but he's refusing to let them run his life and he's determined to show society that he can be a productive person.
Garvin -- whom I'd met before on the street but had never seen him at one of our services -- talked about going to Ottawa to take part in an anti-poverty protest on Parliament Hill; we prayed for wisdom and Grace and for the right people to be put in his path and for the Holy Spirit to give him the words he needs.
It was, in fact, an amazingly powerful service. There's no other way to sum it up. Can't even think of an appropriate way to conclu
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*(There's an engaging and self-deprecatingly amusing story connected with that hymn, "Surely, the presence of the Lord is in this place". For a long time, I had difficulty remembering whether the line was "surely, the presence of The Lord is in this place" or "surely, the presence of God is in this place". That reached its nadir when, one Sunday morning, both versions tried to get out of my mouth at the same time and I belted out "surely the presence of Gord is in this place".)
** Another case in which I'm certain football was created to provide analogies for our relationship with God.
*** Sandra also gave us a mention in her previous column, noting the 2nd anniversary of The Lord's Rain.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
They get it
"This is It, isn't it?" said Cindy. "This is all part of The End."
I affirmed it for her: it's exactly what Jesus told us would happen. And we have to remember what He told us to do: get ready and help others to get ready.
I looked around the place. There was no one in that room that I would have called "stupid". Addicts, down-and-out, mentally ill, whatever ... hardly urbane sophisticates ... but stupid? Not even in that ballpark.
But they get it: they see what's going on and if they're not altogether sure how to handle it, they have an idea where to turn (coming into The Lord's Rain is a good idea, right there). Some of them are starting to realize that there is a way to face these things Jesus warned us about without being fearful.
Come to think of it, isn't that usually the way with people who "get it"? Peter and John were "unlearned men", all the Apostles were generally rough-edged characters except for Paul, and he was a very poor speaker. Moses stammered. Jesus was the carpenter's kid.
Need I go on?
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Cindy's story Pt 1
Cindy is another such person. A year ago, I suspected she was shooting-up in one of the showers, so I called the ambulance. As we continued to yell at her to come out of the shower, she suddenly burst out, stark naked, asking if we were satisfied yet - she'd come out. She got dressed and stumbled out and when police caught up with her, she was weaving into traffic on Hastings in her sock feet.
But in the past four months, she's been coming back to The Lord's Rain - and a very changed person, to boot. Since we "formally introduced" each other, she's never failed to call me by name; she always says "please" and "thank you" and has a pleasant greeting for us when she comes in.
Yesterday, she said, "does God talk to you?"
"Oh, yes."
"Does He ever tell you to do things you really don't want to do?"
"Oh- yeah!" and I told her one of my experiences. "What about you?"
"I think so. I think He's told me to minister to other people. I'm scared to do that."
"Who isn't? But you know: He'll never give you more than you can handle. You might take on more than you can handle, but He won't give it to you; so keep listening and know that He'll give you the strength you need."
"Just baby steps," John put in. "One leads to another and then another ..."
"And you'll be surprised how easy it is, once you take that first step."
So we prayed for strength for her, and the conversation took a different tack. She talked a bit about how her mother had raised her with a bit of knowledge of the Bible and how even in her addiction, if she did something wrong, her conscience wouldn't give her peace until she'd made it right. She told us she'd had a baby, but had given it up for adoption, and how she felt for the single mothers on the Downtown East Side.
She held up a Christian magazine we had there. "Can I take this with me?" "Sure," I said. "I haven't been able to read because of my addiction," she went on. "The other day, I found a Spanish Bible in the bushes by the park. Just having it with me, I felt changes inside. Then I met a single mom who reads Spanish, so I gave it to her."
"You see what happened?" I said, "God's already got you ministering to someone."
She told me she had a tattered Bible of her own at home. "This woman down the hall knocked on my door the other night and asked if I had a pipe and a lighter. I said no, but she came in and started breaking up her dope to share it. She was doing it right over my Bible -- using it like a table -- and something inside me said, 'isn't anything sacred to you?' So I said, 'don't do your dope over that! That's a Bible!' And then she said, 'well, I guess I can't share my dope with you if you don't have a pipe and a lighter.' and she went out. There was a time I'd've gone crazy -- run after her, or go out and do anything to get a hit. But that time - I just knew I had to take a stand: something had to be sacred to me."
There are others now -- and will be more in the future -- who make me cringe when I see them -- as Cindy did up till six months ago, but seeing the changes in Cindy show that transformation is possible, with sufficient prayer and patience. In June, it will be six years since I first started ministering at Rainbow Mission, and while I went down hoping to see an Azusa Street-type revival, I know now that if I'd actually expected that, I'd have been out of there long ago. And if it had happened, I probably would have been out of there long ago, too, taking credit as the "catalyst" for the revival. But the changes that we are seeing in people's lives over time are truly God At Work ... and you know they're real and lasting.
Pastor Cal Weber at Westpointe Christian Centre had an interesting analogy recently: he said that water running over a rock has the same effect as a hammer -- it just takes longer. (It also does a more complete job, eventually reducing that rock to sand, when someone using a hammer might be satisfied with just having a bunch of smaller rocks. Sand, you can re-shape in any way you like; small rocks -- not so easy.)
That would be why the whole concept of The Lord's Rain involves running water.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Pray one for another ...
This morning at The Lord's Rain, we saw some of that in action. Cherie is a young(ish) woman who's been a fixture on the DTES for quite a few years. Achingly pretty, and when she smiles, you want to bottle whatever it was that made her smile and give it to her to inhale whenever she can. She doesn't smile much. Indeed, there are times when she snarls at everybody and everything and is someone who, when I see her approaching, makes me either cringe or cry.
There's a line in one of our songs, "Daddy's little princess/pokin' her arm/she was a beauty once, they say": I thinks of Cherie when I think of that line.
Anyway, Cherie came in this morning, quite obviously whacked-out on drugs: barely able to stand, much less hold a cup of coffee. She had that peculiar gait that you see in people on drugs: their centre of gravity manages to stay put, but their knees bend slowly, and they rock back and forth - never quite falling, but not someone you'd let hang onto the Royal Doulton. She needed fresh clothes, and I was able to rustle up some new underwear and a pair of women's jeans that came in recently.
I've mentioned Shannon before: a 30-something woman who comes in with her husband. Both are weaning themselves off a variety of drugs, and she's one of the very few women I've met who's actually told me -- in a very matter-of-fact way -- that she had been a prostitute to support the drug habit.*
It wasn't just drugs that were Cherie's problem this morning. She also had a black eye. She told me she'd been beaten by two guys last night over $10. She was trying to eat as she told me, but her jaw still hurt and it was hard. Evidently, this girl needed to wash up and change. Shannon was outside, so I went and got her.
Shannon has been helping out at The Lord's Rain for a few months now, often just by sitting and listening to people and talking to them. "Confess your faults, one to another," right? She came in and sat with Cherie for a few minutes, then took her into one of the shower stalls. Shannon came out a few minutes later, fuming. "She's a working girl, eh? What makes guys think that just because a woman's a prostitute they can just beat on her?"
There's no constructive answer to that. 15 minutes later, Cherie came out in her fresh clothes, blow-dried her hair ... and smiled.
It was a morning where I saw James 5 at work: Shannon -- who certainly has her "stuff" together more than Cherie does -- talking to her, encouraging her, helping her with both the spirit and the physical need of getting her into the shower and getting her changed, and giving her hope.
Hope. That's the smile inducer Cherie needs, and it can't be kept in a bottle. Instead, it needs to flow in a constant stream -- from God, through Jesus and then through each of us, as we build one another up.
Just like James says.
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*I gag when I hear the expression "survival sex trade". It sounds so legitimate, doesn't it? Doesn't anyone realize what an indictment that is on our society? I remember an anecdote about New York Mayor Fiorello LaGuardia, who would in his role as Chief Magistrate for the city, preside over Magistrate's Court one day a month. One day, a man was brought before him who was charged with stealing bread. The man told him he was unemployed and unable to feed his family. LaGuardia accepted the guilty plea and fined him $50. Then he suspended the sentence, and fined everyone else in the courtroom $1 for living in a city where a man had to steal to feed his family and ordered the sergeant-at-arms to pass the hat, starting with himself. He then turned the money over to the man. LaGuardia could have stopped at suspending the sentence and called it something like "survival larceny", but he made the others present -- and those of us now, three generations later -- stop and think about where we are in this mess.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Letting go after 20 years ...
Probably the most important thing about my friendship with Pete was that most of the world had long since dismissed him as a waste of skin. He had been adopted as a baby, and for whatever reason never did fit in with anybody. He was smoking cigarettes by age 8, and while I had been on a one-child campaign to wipe out smoking in our lifetime (starting with my parents) and basically wanted nothing to with anyone who smoked, I still hung around with Pete.
He failed a couple of grades -- something he wore almost as a badge of honor -- and, since being a misfit was his main claim to fame, cultivated that sort-of outlaw image. Pete's salvation, it turned out, was Salvation. Around 7th grade, he dropped out of sight, and re-emerged around 9th or 10th grade as a completely different person. He had gone to some kind of juvenile rehab camp and then, he told me, "I woke up one morning and said, 'Pete, you are one f**ked-up kid!'". He immersed himself in two things: the Bible and his guitar.
Musical talent was something he had going for him. He quickly outgrew his local guitar teachers, and having spent some time driving cab and working in the bush ("ya gotta come loggin', Drew! Money's good, and you can buy an electric piano so we can play gigs together!"), he headed off to California to study guitar with the legendary Vicente Gomez.
"I walk in there, and the first thing I say is, 'hiya, Vince!'. Jeez! He nearly threw me out right there! From then on, it was 'Professor Gomez'!"
I noted that it was one of the first times I'd ever seen him show respect to anyone.
We had this cool idea. We'd come out for a show. I'd sit at the piano, and then he'd come out in his plaid work shirt, battered jeans and cork boots, with his 1957 Fender Stratocaster ... then sit down and blast out this Bach sonatina on the guitar ... then rip into some Chuck Berry.
Of course, that never happened, but it was fun thinking about it. Indeed, we never did play a gig together: the only time I ever recorded anything of his was ...
just about 20 years ago ...
Our on-and-off friendship continued as we both wound up in Victoria in the late 80s, but between his business and my work, we hardly ever got together. Getting together to jam became one of those "one of these days" things. His business went under. He seemed to get his head together and find companionship with a motorcycle club that consisted mainly of older people who just wanted to head out on the highway. It looked like he was going to come through this crisis OK.
And then came the phone call.
"Drew, it's Shirley," his mom said. "Peter committed suicide last night."
I'll spare you the details.
Shirley paid for a recording session so I could lay down some of the songs Pete and I had written over the years. My friend Patrick sat in on bass and a session guy filled in on an electronic drum kit; significantly, there was no guitar track. I was able to find a tape Pete had recorded, and we mixed that in with one of his songs. We scattered his ashes around a Douglas fir in Mount Douglas Park and every so often I'd go back and visit the spot -- finding where some of his ashes were still visible.
Unlike George Harrison's rush to the studio after John Lennon was murdered, it took Elton John a few years to come up with "Empty Garden", which is one of my two favorite songs of EJ's ("I Feel Like A Bullet" is the other). Similarly, a "song for Pete" took the better part of two decades to come together.
It started with a riff ... and the lyrics at first sounded like another lost-love piece of tripe: "I can't say that's the way that I thought you would end it/But as they say, that's the way of the world".
Then the lyrics started morphing into something about suicide, and I realized that this was the "song for Pete" ... I titled it, "To Whom It May Concern ..." A little blue-eyed reggae, if you can imagine that ...
During Worship at Gospel Mission on Saturday night, I threw it in -- both as a message to others and a tribute to Peter. I told the guys it was a bit of "self-indulgence", but doggone it, some were reading the lyrics and trying to sing along, anyway ... and as it cross-faded into "Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus", I heard the Lord say, "you can let him go now".
And a couple of songs later, I heard Him say something else. "Peter's life is not wasted. He encouraged you, influenced you -- and turned you onto Me as Salvation for anyone. This whole Worship service is his legacy."
At last, I've let him go ... not grieving any more, so much as revelling in the myriad ways we influence one another. As Shakespeare's Mark Antony said, "the good [men do] is oft interred with their bones". Pete's music was the exception to that rule; let's work to make sure that our lives are, too.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
"That guy positively GLOWED!"
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Protest notes and dischords ...
If one of the Olympic "legacies" is for the "social justice" advocates to re-examine not just their tactics but the raison d’ĂȘtre of these protests, this may have been somewhat worthwhile. Driving past the tent city on Hastings Street this morning, I was struck by the multiplicity of causes: homelessness, the war in Afghanistan, poverty in general, native rights, violence against women; there was even a poster saying, "HARPER + (Olympic rings) = (swastika)".
So the questions go like this:
- What do you really want?
- How are the Olympics responsible for these problems?
- What does "success" look like?
- Why do you think this will accomplish that?
- After all these years, maybe it's time to change tactics?
- Where are you when the Olympics are not an issue?
- What are you, yourselves, doing to alleviate the situation? (and don't say, "I'm protesting" or "I'm staging a sit-in to draw attention to ...")
See, the causes these people claim to espouse are generally worthy ones (with the possible exception of the Harper/swastika poster -- what if the PM's kids saw that?*), but as such, the solutions require discussion and dialogue, not slogans that polarize factions.
My daughter, who turns 18 in a couple of weeks, gave what's become the stock position: "all this money being spent should be going to the homeless".
But would it? As Vancouver Councillor Geoff Meggs pointed out in an interview just before the Olympics, millions of dollars are already being spent on the Downtown East Side, much of it on social housing. I personally know of three people who've benefited from that. But there are still problems. The fact is, the money being spent would not have gone towards housing: it would have gone towards something else where people think they can make a buck. And look at all the people who have been given jobs and been able to feed their families because of the Olympics. And look at the infrastructure projects -- many of which are transportation-related and will help reduce dependency on private automobiles (need I point out that you will likely find many of these same protesters taking part in the "Critical Mass" bike rides?).
The biggest problem I see with the protesters here is the lack of cohesiveness. The image they're projecting is that of a bunch of people with a mad-on against the world in general. They may see social injustice and want something to be done about it, but when the rubber meets the road, it's always up to somebody else to fix it.
True activism is to roll up your sleeves and do something yourself -- and I don't mean march in demonstrations. Encourage people who are struggling with life. Comfort people who are grieving. Re-examine your approach. Look for open dialogue with decision-makers to decide on solutions and with people who can contribute resources to make the solution happen. Here's another way of putting it: "... visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and keep [yourself] unspotted from the world." Translation: you have a responsibility to do something constructive to help others -- and don't fall into the world's way of doing things, which can often be to rely on money, power and everybody else to do the right thing.
And where does that wisdom come from? The Epistle of James, part of the Bible ... which has never been more relevant than it is today. And do it quietly, without drawing attention to yourself, because your Father, who sees in secret, will reward you openly (Matt. 6:4), with the satisfaction of success. That is what you want, isn't it?
I, by the way, happen to be enjoying the Olympics immensely. We went to the victory ceremonies this past Sunday, when the entertainment was provided by Trooper and Loverboy. Who among us does not know Trooper's signature song, "Raise A Little Hell", which, aside from being a great way to rev up the crowd at a basketball game, is also encouragement for social activism.
But I got to thinking about that: since, as Paul writes, "we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" (Eph. 6:12), do we want to raise a little hell; or is it more effective to call down a lot of Heaven?
=========*Actually, the statements of some of the lead protesters in the group have led me to believe that that question is a non-starter. They've already shown they have no conscience about the impact of their words and deeds on innocent people.